by Amon Fallenstar » Fri Nov 30, 2018 9:34 am
Amon despite himself did feel his heart pick up the pace a fair around as Isabel moved her own hands and wrapped it around his own, his eyes looked over her as she did so and he would tell that she was giving herself permission to return the affection rather than restraining it as she had been previously, in response Amon found his thumb stroking her hand were she interlinked their digits as he enjoyed softness of her hands which were a large contrast to his own that were rough from years of combat and war because of his upbringing. In that moment of thought he also realize that between his time as a Sith and a Jedi, it was the former that had seen the least combat, when one would have thought it would be the other way around. Almost as if he was being kept away from violence unless his Master was there as well.
"I imagine that you think I wouldn't approve of those... 'things'?" he asked, "Hard for me to tell when you won't elaborate don't you think?" Even as he said that, he did realize what she was getting at because he knew of her fear of harming others with her power and if that was something she did unintentionally; then what was it that she would have wanted to do? It had a foreboding implication to say the else but with who the young Sith had been traveling with for the last several years, it couldn't as terrible as what the original Fallenstar was capable of - could it? "But unlike other types of danger, you're not trying to be dangerous are you?" he countered, his voice was softer than it had been before she had taken his hand. "Perhaps you're going the wrong way about controlling it?" he suggested, he knew that those powerful in the Force often had problems controlling that strength even with training and the young Fallenstar knew she came from a lineage of power, unlike the Fallenstar family where it comparatively seemed that all of the power was condensed into the head of their family.
She moved their hands to her lap and he found himself also stroking her thigh as well ever so slightly, the fabric of her pants showing how well made they were, it was clear that she liked to wear the best quality clothes that matched her style. He was constantly impressed with how.. savvy some of the Remnants were with their dress. Given his own wardrobe was... bland, but he often put that down to his lifestyle and upbringing, the Jedi hadn't been big of clothes and these days he was more often than not in need of combat garb than anything else. Though both him and his father owned one set of dress robes, both Jedi sets as Sith rarely actually had things that required them.
"They do say opposites attract..." he replied as she continued to address her concerns with what some sort of union between the two of them would form, "I often wonder why that is, is it some form of balance?" his tone was musing as he spoke since his real focus was still on the contact they shared as he allowed himself to enjoy it more than he probably should be. But as Isabel said, there was an undeniable desire to reach for more from them and at this point he was having a hard time blaming her pheromones anymore. "Though I have an inkling of what you refer too, to be made of something that you didn't ask for, something you despise..." he trailed off remembering the way he had been conceived and then later restored so he would make it to term. "You just... have to take that part of you and make it your own, make the power it has over you, your own power, though that does require accepting it to a degree."
"You see me as truly evil then?" he asked her, his tone still soft but in a way that seemed almost hurt, he knew that following the darker path of the Force would bring those thoughts about himself but at the same time, he had never considered himself in that way but then again... everyone saw themselves as a hero in their own mind - was that what had happened to him? He looked down at their intertwined hands in her lap and then back to Isabels face. "I suppose so, hard to make an argument for it otherwise isn't it? Considering my lineage, sins of the father and all that." he admitted his voice almost sounding hurt or resigned.
"I do understand your desire, it is difficult for beings like us to... find that sort of peace after all," he admitted, "Another thing both factions within the Force share but for different reasons, sometimes I wonder exactly why they fight given how similar they are at their core," he then turned his words back to themselves, "Though perhaps we could help each other in that respect?" he suggested, without realizing it he had leaned in closer to Isabel and his other free digits of his hand had kept up their massage of her hand and leg as well. "Sometimes retaining a thought or feeling only makes it compound inside until it becomes something else entirely," this time he was speaking directly from experience as he had often thought his distaste for his father when he had been part of the Puris Axiom was just his Jedi upbringing vs the way the man had been a 'redeemed' Sith but now it had been clear it was a darker emotion that had powered his distaste, one that would drive him away from the light over time.
"The presence of a Fallenstar,
If you could convince the Order of their survival,
It would tremble in fear,
The name itself is power."
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